Creator Journals 4/28/25

I’ll be real, I’d rather be playing video games right now. It’s a beautiful day out. It’s a perfect day to play video games and stare out the window at the sun-soaked apartment complex. That’s one of my struggles as a writer. It isn’t so much that I’m lazy and like to put things off, it’s more of a depressive thing. Let me explain;
Usually when I’m in a depressive state, I’m pretty productive. I don’t get a lot of pleasure out of leisure, so I just focus on doing what I have to do, grinding, if you will. I can write a whole lot. I’m like “If nothing is going to be any fun, I might as well spend some time on my work”. The issue right now is that it’s a beautiful day and I just downloaded a new game that I’m actually enjoying.
My depression makes me a weird sort of hedonist. If I see an opportunity to enjoy something, I have a really hard time turning it down.
So, the solution today is simple; I just have to make myself enjoy writing!
I’m so close to being done the revisions on my new book, and I want it to be done by the start of May so I can focus on my next book!
Time to drink a lot of coffee and listen to music while I try to excavate words from my head.
God speed to all my fellow writers. May you find joy, both meaningful and cheap, in your act of creation. Amen, hallelujah.

God Speed